Happy Dance!!

I would like to announce that I will be stopping all meds this evening.  I have two shots left tonight, one of progesterone and one of estrogen.  Then I am DONE!!!

My behind is beyond painful right now.  I have numbness, knots the size of pickles (yes in that length), new and old bruises and soreness.  I am hoping that by the 3rd trimester my back side will be back to it's normal self and not the beat up that it looks now.  I would share pictures but I will spare you all that awfulness. ha  Yeah for the final day of shots!!!

Yes I am a bit excited about this moment!  I never thought I would hate shots so much in my life but after giving myself roughly 75 shots I am done.  I don't want to see these shots for a while for sure!

She knows

I have kept my daughter very involved in this entire process and this is what she told me the other day!  I thought I would share it!

She has known for the past year and a half what was going to happen and that the babies were not coming home with us.  Since she is a bit older I didn't want her to see my belly growing and think she was going to have a sister or brother so we've talked about it so many times.  She is smart and I knew if I didn't talk to her about this and keep her involved she might have a broken heart in the end and that is not what I want to happen.  She is actually excited for mommy to help her and I keep telling her of the fun things we can do when this is all said and done!

Shot #2

Shot #2 I really thought I would have the courage to just stick myself but it just didn't happen.  I was so nervous and called my babysitter/cousin if she would give me the shot.  I got over there when I went to pick up my daughter and her husband was there and used to be an EMT so he was showing her how to do it and was ready to give it to me.  I brought all of my supplies for it!  This shot stung more but I think it was because it was lower then the other one was.  It got done though and my daughter was there holding my hand to comfort me.  She has been so sweet about mommy getting all these shots!  If she could she would probably fix me dinner and baby me!

First shot

I started my shots on Friday evening and was going to attempt to do it myself and quickly chickened out.  I called a friend to see if she could help me and she said her mom was home and would do it for me.  I drove the 20 minutes, yes I was too scared to do it myself and didn't want to explain to a neighbor (haven't told too many people) what it was for when I just wanted the shot and then to go home and to bed.

We got there and I had no idea what or how to do this and the directions weren't that great.  We ended up having to wait for my friend to get off of work to help me out.  She got there and found out we were putting the meds in the wrong syringe which could have been really bad.  I put the 18 Gauge needle on the syringe and put .2 in and then switch the needle out to the 25 gauge.  My clinic didn't want to spend the extra 50 cents per needle I guess and had originally sent me 22 gauge needles.  Not bad but unless they are going to have to attempt at some point to stick this in your behind, no thanks!  My friend gave me her extras which I greatly appreciate!!  What my instructions didn't really explain to me very well is that once I stick myself with the needle I need to pull back on the syringe to make sure I don't get any blood in the back flow.  Making sure I didn't accidentally hit a blood vessel, which wouldn't be a good thing to insert the meds into my blood.

My friends mom drew circles where I needed to put the needle and I really was going to attempt to do it myself and then felt better her helping guide my hand.  That helped and it really wasn't that bad but boy was a shaky and nervous about screwing it up.  She checked the back flow and then we inserted very, very slowly the medicine.  The medicine is super thick and so it took a little while for it to go completely in but it was good for a first time.  I think next time I will attempt to do it myself and just lay on my side like I've heard some other girls do.