After I delivered TJ and all during that pregnancy I said it was my last one unless they wanted a sibling down the road. I figured I would take a break from being pregnant and just focus on me and my family. Then I had this couple fall in my lap and I had a decision to make. I have been chatting with them since February/March and I flew out to meet them the end of July. From the beginning I've always said and felt that if things are meant to be they will work out. I wasn't really looking for a new couple. When I first started talking to this new couple I felt like I was cheating on TJ's family. I ran it by them and they want to wait to decide. I felt better having their blessing to move forward with this new couple.
This new couple is adorable and so sweet. When Mrs. NYC told me about her infertility story my heart went out to them. My friend carried their second child for them and it was sweet watching them dote over him. We discussed several things while at lunch and I felt very good about everything. I feel like this is going to be a great match.
The main reason for not wanting to look for a new couple is I was scared. I was scared that I would think they were amazing and then it end the same as the first couple I carried for. I want contact after. I don't need to hear or talk every single day but a quick text or picture every so often means the world to me. J & T have been so amazing in giving me that. This new couple give their last surro that and I am hopeful it will be the same with me.
Anyways, the whole point of this is that I am officially matched. I will be flying out to do the medical and psychological evaluations. I am hoping that we have time to get everything done for us to transfer when they are wanting to. Here is to another journey...
