Moments

This day has been awaited and planned for months and months now and it has finally arrived!!!!  As I got ready and was in the shower I was so overwhelmed and started to cry.  This was happening!  That sweet Spirit I have felt countless times was going to be and was going to thrive and be given a chance at life.  I literally could feel how excited they were to be given this chance.

We headed over to the fertility clinic and chatted for a bit while we waited.  Mrs. California and I were getting a little anxious for this to go down and then there was Mr. California.  He was a cool cucumber and just was so content.  On the way to the clinic I asked Mrs. C if she was going to cry since I probably would and she said she had already teared up a little.

When we started this journey we had always agreed to transfer 2 embryos and they had four frozen so I always thought that's what we would end up doing.  When we got there we found out that only 1 baby embie made it through the thaw.  We were a little sad about that but it was also a blessing in disguise.  They didn't want to have to make a difficult choice on what to do if they had any left over and this worked the first time.  God took over that part of the decision for everyone!! :)

They called us back and I changed in to my awesome gown and she told us the embryologist would be in soon to explain further instructions for after the procedure.  We waited and waited and the nurse finally came back and she ended up explaining our instruction for afterwards.  This was starting to get real!  It was about that time that I had taken the Valium and I am SO glad that I did.  I know some girls say the procedure is so simple and similar to a pap smear and to go sans the Valium.  Although the procedure was simple and quick once it actually it got started but the speculum just hanging out down town didn't really feel that great.

The doctor came in and IP's chatted a second and then we started the miracle making!!  I won't lie this was one of the most amazing experiences of my life aside from giving birth to my daughter.  I have had many spiritual experiences leading up to this decision and then to this point and this wasn't any different.  It was amazing and I started to tear up almost immediately!

They transferred one little embryo and then I had to wait on the table for 10 minutes and then I could FINALLY empty my VERY full bladder.  Whoever said that was necessary didn't have someone pushing on your bladder and someone in your business for 20 minutes.

It felt so surreal to realize that he just implanted a little start of a baby in my uterus and that I could possibly become pregnant if it was meant to be.  I was taking the meds correctly and doing what they wanted so now it was all in God's hands.  Now we just wait to start POAS!!!

 Valium was starting to kick in and I was feeling really awesome at this point!!

 We originally thought we were transferring both of these little beauties but we only transferred the top on which was a grade A+.  The bottom one didn't expand and wasn't thriving. :(

If you can tell, the little white dot in the center is where the little embie is starting to get snuggled in for a long 9 months!!

Zoo Day!

Friday we all wanted to keep busy since we were so excited for the big day on Saturday!  The night before I asked my daughter if she wanted to go to the beach again or if she'd like to go to the zoo.  She tells me "mom we already went to the beach!"  To the zoo we went!

We went to the Santa Barbara zoo and had tons of fun!  There was lots to see and they had baby giraffes there which were so cute!  The kids did surprisingly well considered we were there during nap time and the two littlest are dependent on nap time.  I would say it was a great day!

We got home and just relaxed and got ready for the big morning!  I can't believe it was finally here!  We had been planning this day for 8 months and it was finally hours away!!

Beach day!

We got up a little early for our final, final ultrasound before the transfer and everything looked great!  We were all interested to see what my lining was since we didn't get a clear answer on Monday.  My lining was a 10mm which is a freaking rock star!!  From the supposed 6 or 7 on Monday to a 10 we were all a little excited about this!!  I felt like I had a royal uterus for how awesome it did! ha

After the ultrasound and getting things lined up for our big transfer on Saturday we went back home to get things ready for the beach!!  Mrs. Cali decided to leave Ms. Diva home which I was sad about but we will for sure have to go another time.  Ms. Diva was running a fever a little bit so we didn't want her to continue to get more sick if that was going on.

The beach was amazing and so much fun!  We went to a smaller beach which ended up being perfect!  We saw a few dolphins while we were there!  We played in the freezing cold water and we built sand castles and just enjoyed ourselves.  I really could be a beach bum, I love it so much!!

Travel time!!!!!

Wednesday we had a plane to catch at 7:30 am and I had set my alarm a couple of times since I am known to hit snooze way too many times.  We would have been on time and not had any craziness going on if I had planned on parking my car at the airport but my ex was taking us and it was 20 minutes just to his house.  Luckily I had packed everything the night before but that meant that I was up til 2 am getting things cleaned and lined up before and I was exhausted!

We barely made our flight, we were totally like on the movies and we were RUNNING through the airport trying to catch our flight!  As we got closer to our gate the lady at the gate said are you so and so and she had a ticket printed for us.  We literally BARELY made that flight.  We were told there our luggage my not make it this flight but would be on the next flight.

The flight was great and it was nice to sit and relax after the chaos of the morning.  My daughter has flown a few times and has never been scared which has been nice since I get nervous flying but this time she was really scared of how high we were.  She normally will sit by the window and look at the clouds we fly through or the little tiny ant cars on the ground til she can't see them anymore.  This time she refused to sit by the window and then needed to hold my hand which was totally fine by me!!  She did really enjoy when we landed though and we zoomed to a stop and it was like a race car.

Since I wasn't expecting to get my bags for another three hours from us landing I took my time.  We stopped and got some breakfast and some hot chocolate!  After an hour I went down to baggage to wait and I stopped to check if maybe my bags had made it by chance, they had!!!  We got in at 8:30 am and the next flight wasn't supposed to get in til 12:30 so that was nice to not worry about waiting for hours and we could just be done there and leave.

It was so nice seeing Mrs. California and the kidlets when they pulled up!  We decided to go to Hollywood and check out the stars and to the theater to see the hand prints.  That was really fun for me but probably not so fun for the kids.  I'll have to come another trip and do the tourist thing with just the adults!  We got ice cream for lunch, yes so nutritious!  The kidlets asked the next couple days for ice cream during lunch or dinner!  You are welcome! ;)

We went to this really neat candy store called Sweets that  I think I will have to visit again next trip!

The rest of the day we just kind of hung out at home and relaxed.  We are planning on going to the beach tomorrow which we are excited for!!!